It is hurt to leave and to be left.
Crying out loud can sometimes be the most relieving way to get rid from remembering sad things. And is satisfaying to express our feeling.
But not this time. I just wanna cry like hell without knowing the reasons of crying, without having breathing difficulties, without throwing up what i've just ate, without blablabla.
A friend called and i suddenly cried. He asked why and wonder if his words hurting me. No! I am missing someone. That i dont know when will i be able to meet, again.
It is obviously not bcoz of mood swing, coz i just had my period. Apa yang aku buat semua macam tak kena. Nak marah, nak nangis, nak hempas2 barang, semua ada.
Berkurung dalam bilik bukanlah jalan penyelesaian but i believe, if aku kat hall kang muka aku jadi merah tah pape semua akan perasan. Baik aku berkurung. Since takde kerja nak buat, sebab tak pegi beli manik pun untuk jahit. Nanti2 la, malas nak buat apa2 pun.
Sangat takde mood.
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